Katelynn meets the world.

Growing up sucks, but I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

The rest of my life. November 12, 2008

Filed under: Future, God — KLynn08 @ 7:56 am

Okay… so on the menu today we have:

My dream
Changing my major
Taking a break from school
Missions Trips
Making my dream a reality

 My dream: To start an NPO for victims of human traifficking. It will be a two step program wih two purposes. First of all get people out of sexual slavery, and then meet their needs in regards to the hierarchy of needs: First their physiological needs must be met. That’s obvious: Food, Shelter, Clothing, etc. Then their safety needs. A secure compound including a school, a dormitory, and office buildings for the main offices and therapists; this will involve guards, fences, the whole spiel, and people they can feel safe with. A mentor will be assigned to each person that comes into our organization, this person will be a friend and have almost a parent-like role for the victim. A stable figure they can rely on and feel safe with. Which leads into the next step of the heirarchy, belongingness and love: Not only will they have a relationship with their mentor, but they will be assigned core groups. This is a same-gendered group with which they can have fun in planned activites, make lasting friendships, and ‘belong’. Their core group leader will also be a stable adult-figure they can trust. Then their esteem needs must be met. They must feel their own personal self-worth. They will be able to attend school, but this won’t be any school, it will be an arts school. There is substantial evidence to prove that the arts can be an extremely beneficial form of self-expression and release for victims of trauma. They will be trained in music, drawing, film, pottery, graphic design, and theatre arts, along with their usual subjects. Their instructors will be uplifting, and inspire a passion and love for learning in their students, they will encourage them in all their interests. This is one way they will be able to achieve esteem. Older students will be able to work in a coffee shop/bookstore and a thrift store, which will not only be a way to raise funds to make the mission more self supporting, it will also help the students to find validity in themselves and their ability to make money to support themselves. It will give them job experience. They will be taught basic fiscal skills through their wages as well, and encouraged to save much of their earnings. 
The final stage of the hierarchy, self actualization, is up to the student their self.
Younger students will be adopted by families that have been trained on what to expect and how to deal with a child who has been through so much trauma. Families will be carefully screened and often the same-gendered parent will be assigned as the mentor from the beginning.
Older students will be highly encouraged to attend college. They will also receive help from the organization like a parent would give to their child as they make their way into the world. Help getting their first apartment, paying for college, getting a car and liscence, etc. 
The role of the mentor is a life-time commitment. The mentor will be there for the student in a very personal way their entire life. The mentor, and possibly the mentor’s family, will become the family and support system the student is lacking.
Also, I think it should be noted that throughout this entire process extensive therapy will be ongoing and possibly provided after the student is discharged. Victims of human trafficking often show the signs of post-traumatic stress syndrome, and these problems will be dealt with on a case-by-case basis by a team of therapists.

Changing my major: I look at all this and realize… a theatre major is not gonna help me with this. I want to change to a business major with a minor in sociology and religon. Take some classes on grant writing. It’s a serious switch… but hey. I’m really scared I’ll have to take lots of math classes, though. Haha.

Taking a break from school: THen I realize… I hate college. I’m over school. I want to be done with it, and get on with what God wants me to do… but I need to get an education, or people won’t give me money… but I hate school. So… a gap year. I need to work and make some money, anyways… because a college education is expensive, and I do not want debt. So… how do I legitimize a gap year?

Missions Trips: I need to get experience anyway, right? And I REALLY want to go to India and work with victims there. I work one semester, save up some cash, and the next? India. SO bomb.

Making my dream a reality: Everything is just… coming together. It’s amazing how God works. If I can give anyone one piece of advice it’d be, ‘Seek God in everything.’ 

It’s the only thing I know for sure.

 

Obama ‘08. November 5, 2008

Filed under: Future, God — KLynn08 @ 7:50 am
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I’m pleased with you America.
I am not pleased with Wyoming, because they made it impossible for me to vote.

 Had I a vote to cast, however, Obama would have had it.
 Change is good. Change is needed.
Another four years of Bush (as liberal and conservative analysts predicted McCain would be… except on steroids)  may not work… seeing as these last four years have done so much for us.

I’m happy, despite how my parents may feel, despite how the student body of this school may feel… I think this may be a good thing.

And to all the people who are like ‘Oh no! Obama is president! America is going to suck! We can only trust God!’
Who the crap cares who the president is? God’s still in control. If God didn’t want Obama to win, I can guarantee you he wouldn’t have. And quite honestly, did it really take Obama getting elected for you to trust God?
Yeah.

He can’t screw America up anymore than it already is, anyway.

 

Brainchild of Boredom. November 3, 2008

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That would make a good band name.
Anyway.

I love this blog. I can talk all I want… and no one cares. I don’t have to mean one bit of what I say… even though I usually do.  

 I miss my friends. I want to act like I don’t have a care in the world. I’m glad at this growing up business. I wouldn’t go back, not now that I’ve tasted a tiny bit of adulthood. It’s still hard, though, being a grownup… of sorts. You can’t be a grownup in college… not in the dorms, at least. 

I think that I miss working, though. Isn’t that weird? I think I might be a workaholic. Haha. Or maybe… I just value the trait of hard work and seek validity of myself as a good person through that. I don’t know. I do need money… so a job would be useful.

Forty-three days until I go home. It’s not that I hate it here. I’ll probably be more than ready to come back within a week… but I miss everything. Home… except I don’t actually have a home in Wyoming, at least not over christmas break, I will over summer break, but not this time around. I’ll probably just be sleeping at my grandparents house, working, and hanging out with my friends at their houses… then driving over to Kemmerer to sleep on my parents’ couch, then driving back… because that isn’t my home. That’s where my family lives… but it’s not where my heart is. I don’t even have a bed or a room or anything there. That place has nothing for me. Ugh. It’s all very confusing to me and that’s the best I can work it out for myself these days. 

I just need God, my friends, and music…  

Speaking of which… I discovered Dustin Kensrue and Tantric this weekend. Good shizz.
“I’m being myself, who are you?” – Down and Out, Tantric

 

To My Last Year October 2, 2008

Filed under: God, Quotes, Word Art — KLynn08 @ 6:22 am

Last year,
It was all always all about you
I was your biggest fan
You held my porcelain heart in your hand
You crushed it
I hope it made you bleed, like you made me

So, what the hell are you gonna do?
I could have been, would have been
You played the fool, but I’ll do far better than you
Good bye last year
I’m moving on, and you’ll miss me

With this song you’ll see,
I could have been your world
Your perfect imperfection
I could have been your baby, your baby, your baby,
Goodbye last year,
Goodbye forever

Keep up the talk
I’m gone, what does that make you?
You lose, I win
Someday, you’ll see me with him
We’ll be forever
You’ll have been my never

 

Vanguard University: And So It Begins September 23, 2008

I haven’t blogged in a while. Sorry for the lack of update.

August 17th I embarked on the most wonderous journey… not really. The destination was the important thing. Vanguard. I was nervous and scared and thrilled beyond imagination. Not only would I be alone in a place where I knew no one, I would be forced to live with people I hadn’t met before in my life. The process was nervewracking, to say the least.
     My first week was Music Camp. It was fun. I made some good friends. Turned 18. Had my first birthday Pizookie. Got moved in.
     THen came welcome week, or weekend, as it should more appropriately be titled. My frontline group was BOMB. And we went to downtown disney. Rock Harbor (hated it, to be honest). Met a few boys… :]
    The weeks that have followed have been an adventure. Rez Rally was soo much fun. And we won the flag. And stayed out until 1:30 at In-N-Out. I was inducted into the VU Theatre Family in a sacred rite. I was appointed light board operator for the Christmas production ‘It’s A Wonderful Life’ (which I’m TOTALLY stoked for). I was introduced to mucho BOMB music by my lovely HannahLove. I’ve learned how to talk like a Californian, which is basically Legit. I got my EnV2. :] I became a Facebook Hoe…

And so we go.

 

“I’m yours”, but not in a Jason Mraz sort of way. August 29, 2008

Filed under: God, Quotes, Word Art — KLynn08 @ 12:34 am

Weak and broken I come before You
Looking only for You
My strength I find in You
My rest only comes in Your arms

How could I do this on my own?
I find myself at the foot of your throne
Facedown and crying
But never alone

Waiting upon you
My strength is yours to renew
All I was, am, and will be
All belongs to you

 

Thank You July 7, 2008

Filed under: God, Word Art — KLynn08 @ 5:10 am

And I find myself here in this place again
Here in this wretched state again
I’ve forgotten your voice
I’ve forgotten your call
I’ve forgotten that you gave it all

The world swirls around me,
Breaking my mind
Defiling my thoughts
Stealing my dreams
Trampling on all that you have given to me

I can’t stand alone,
I make it through You
In You I will find rest
In You I will take a stand
In You I will Be.

Thank You, for holding my hand
Thank You, for helping me to stand
Thank You, for being the air I breathe
Thank You, for for lighting this fire inside me

 

C.S. Lewis July 5, 2008

Filed under: God, Quotes — KLynn08 @ 7:44 am
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So true. C.S. Lewis was an incredibly brilliant man.

 

Hello World. June 27, 2008

Filed under: Future, God — KLynn08 @ 7:32 am
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So… I’m continuing in the same vein of my last post. Growing up. It’s a scary prospect, really. I mean, tonight, I made $28 bucks in tips. Not bad considering I only had 4 tables. What am I gonna do with it? Buy gas and put the rest into savings. See what I mean by “Kati” is boring?
You see, for those of you who don’t know me personally… everyone at home calls me Kati. My name’s Katelynn. So… when I go to college I want  to start going by K’Lynn… thus the name of this blog. When I went down to Vanguard I introduced myself as K’Lynn. I think K’Lynn sounds more fun and quirky and… it’s a change. I’m going for a total CHANGE. Don’t get me wrong… I don’t want to be a fake person… I think I am now, though. Well, no. I think I embrace the darker side of my personality. The quieter, angrier, meaner one. Soo… I guess, in welcoming the California Sunshine I’ll welcome the sunnier side of my personality (Metaphor is such a great literary tool). The fun, crazy joyful, friendly (to EVEYONE) gal that I was at camp. All my good traits and I’m going to discard my bad ones like an old diaper. Eewey.

 

Back in the day… June 26, 2008

Filed under: Future, God, Photography, Quotes — KLynn08 @ 9:01 am
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Haha. This made me laugh. It also reminded me how fast time is going… I mean, I’m seventeen. In my lifetime alone so many advncements have been made and events taken place… Life is gone in a snap. So you HAVE to live each moment. Live it up.

That’s what I intend to do in Cali. There’s so many things I’ve always wanted to do and try… there’s so many things I want to be. There’s this whole personality inside me that is bubbly and crazy and kind and fun and just great. That person… K’Lynn, came out at camp a little. The person I am at home, though, Kati. She’s faar too boring for my taste. She’s going away. I’m not sure she’s who I am.

I want to have a boyfriend. I want to dance. On a team. I want to sing in front of a thousand people. I want to sing my songs. I want to run down the beach in a bikini! I want to stay out until 2am. I want to be a flirt. i want to speak spanish. I want to help people. I want to be good at something! I want this blog to have a thousand hits! I want to be famous on YouTube!!

I don’t even know who I am or what I’m capable of yet… but I sure want to find out.